Wednesday, July 23, 2008

A Mother and Her Son

This picture says a thousand words.
LOVE~~LIFE~~FOREVER~~PRECIOUS~~TRUST~~INTENSE~~BREATH~~SON
I am in love with my son. In my eyes he is just perfect. The new life he has breathed into me is indescribable. The joy he has brought our family is a gift that I am enjoying every second. Getting to watch his every move is such a privilege. Everyday he is blossoming into this little boy who will always be changing.... for the better....... because of love.
I want him to feel the same love for me because I am his Mama. I want him to trust and feel secure enough to be happy and love just the way my other children do.
Every day I make sure to spend some time rocking him right around the time he is going to sleep. The first night I did this, he cried for 10 minutes before drifting off to sleep. Although his adjustment has been going incredibly well, he seems to prefer to self sooth himself by sucking his hand and rubbing his neck. He would rather do this by himself. While this is not a terrible thing, I personally feel that he should be able to be soothed by me. I want him to know that he no longer needs to solely rely on himself to be comforted.
I am his Mama and I want him to know what it feels like to be rocked, cuddled, hugged......... I want him to know physical touch in the way that would actually cause him to reach out for it himself.
I look forward to the day where he leans forward to rub noses with me and then steals a little kiss just because he can.
Tonight when I got him ready for bed there was hardly a whimper when I picked him up to rock him. While he preferred to look away from me as I rocked him the prior two nights, this time I decided to hold him facing me. I wanted him to see my eyes, feel my breath, hear my heartbeat, and feel my kisses and nose rubs all over his face.
So far so good. Houston, we have made contact.

41 comments:

Mom To Six said...

What a beautiful post!! Eastern Europe is very near and dear to my heart, since we waited for 3 years for a little boy from Belarus, but alas...it wasn't God's plan.

Thank you for stopping by my blog.

Blessings,

Ohilda

Chelley said...

TEARS streaming down my face,

Martha said...

:)

Amy said...

I'm so happy that Dennis has you for a Mom!
Caleb wanted to be left alone at bedtime too, but I did what you are doing and began rocking him. It didn't take long for him to love that! He still loves it...and it gives me some relaxation and quiet time with him at the end of the day. :)
Amy

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crispy said...

You are an amazing mom. I love your thoughts and love for your children. It seems you are working hard at having this child attach to you. I know it will pay off in the future.

Rich, Andrea, Reece & Owen said...

You are truly amazing, Christine....so honored to know you.

Major Mom said...

I am so happy for Dennis and your family. What a precious moment. I think this is what God had in mind when he created us.

Julie said...

Your words have brought me to tears. Many times since we brought our son home from Serbia last month, I have rocked him. I have also plucked him up out of his crib on many occasions to lay in bed with me. Even though he is sleeping, I am sure that he is growing to know me more and learning to trust in me.

It is also a wonderful time to pray for my precious child. I know what you mean when you say that you want him to love you like you love him. As the days go by, I see our David becoming more and more at ease in his surroundings. He is relying on us. I know that you are already seeing that in Dennis, too. I pray that he is able to continue to draw closer to you each day. I know your love for him is deeper than words can express. Thanks for sharing so deeply from your heart.

Cindi said...

This picture says it all...what a blessing!

Kathy and Matt said...

Beautifully stated!

Have a blessed day!

Zac and Jenny said...

Christine can you pass me the kleenex?

-Jenny

THE CAMPBELL FAMILY said...

VERY BEAUTIFUL!!!! CHRISTINE , YOU AND DENNIS LOOK SO SWEET. A MOTHER'S LOVE FOR HER CHILDREN IS SO SPECIAL!!!!! YOU ARE TRULY AMAZING. THANKS FOR SHARING SO MUCH WITH ALL OF US. JODY

Kevin and Tammy said...

This is an awesome post. You are going to show him what a wonderful thing it can be to be loved.

Tammy

MMrussianadoption said...

that is so wonderful to hear.

TheMonroe6 said...

Your picture says a thousand words!

val said...

Where is the Kleenex warning??

That was beautiful! You & you family inspire me everytime I read your blog

God Bless you

Rachel said...

What a very sweet post, thanks for sharing.

Amy said...

He is perfect. And he is loved! Not by only his family, but the world of Blogville. Your story is very touching and I have and will continue to pray for all of you.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful story with us. God is SO good! His plan is perfect and it is such a privilege to witness His miracles!

Rita Andrews said...

Christine....this post is just wonderful! I am so glad that he is starting to feel the comfort of having a forever Momma! He is one lucky little man, as you are one lucky momma!

Blessings to you!

Erica said...

I just wanted to pop by and say hello! Thank you so much for checking out my blog! I have been almost in tears as I've read through your story here. What a sweet little boy and what an incredible journey so far! You all are so lucky to have each other. I can't wait to hear more about your journey. I will definitely be stopping back by.

Erica

Anonymous said...

That is the most heart warming picture, it's just beautiful. You truly are amazing!

Dennis looks so comforted and calm. That picture belongs in a magazine, there's just something about it. I can feel the love and warmth.

As always, I love reading your blog.

Cheryl
Juliasmom

Mike and Christie said...

Ahhh, what a sweet picture. I am amazed at Dennis's transition. What a sweetie pie:)

Tami said...

Absolutely precious picture! And a beautiful post. He is right where he belongs. :)

Brandi said...

uh. . .you are killing us with this one! HOW PRECIOUS!!!!

Love,
Brandi
PS The blogs don't feed into the RLC feed unless you add the blog badge at the end. Email me if that doesn't make sense!

Shea said...

God Bless you. I am so happy little Dennis is home!

woodcock said...

Wow! Thanks for sharing your family with us. It is so great to be able to see your other children so in love with Dennis too. I feel blessed by the pictures. Thanks.
Marla

living4him5 said...

Beautiful picture, brought tears to my eyes!!

He's gorgeous!

Blessings,
Amy

AZmomto8 said...

Christine,

Please go to my blog, I have something there for you.

This last post was awe inspiring, your words catured how I have been feeling about sweet Amanda, who gave me my first kiss from her today!

Janine said...

Beautiful! Just beautiful!

AdoptaMama said...

So very sweet. Beautiful picture. Wonderful post. Congratulations again Mama!

MIGUEL ANGEL Y CARMEN said...

Queria que supierais que veo vuestro blog desde que lo consegui en el blog de Gerardo y Laura y lo he enlazado al mio.Os felicito y me pareceis una personas maravillosas, sois angeles, por que solamente lo que habeis echo es para alabaros ,ya que muy poca gente, hubiera echo lo que habeis echo, nosotros tenemos un hijo biologico deficiente mental es y lo hemos pasado muy mal, aunque nos ha dado muchas alegrias, le queremos a morir y dariamos la vida por el y por nuestros demas hijos,vuelvo a felicitaros y os admiro, de corazon y con cariño os deseo mucha suerte en la vida. besos de Carmen de Madrid, proxima madre de una niña de Ucrania.
p.d. perdon por no saber ingles.

Dolores said...

I know these intense feelings you have for your baby boy. What a blessing for all of your family!
Dolores

Salzwedel Family said...

That, my dear, is a beautiful thing!

Donna D. said...

Christine, what a beautiful picture. I saw it last night and came back to see how pretty you two look together again today. Glad you are all home together!

Blessings to you all,
Donna
babies6 (frua)
Mission Viejo, CA

Sara said...

Love Love Love that picture!! You need to have that blown up to an 8X10 and hang it on your wall. It is so precious....it truly speaks from a mother's heart. Your children all seem so nurturing too...love all the pictures of them just looking at or playing with Dennis...how sweet is that? I'm getting ready for a rummage sale...it's so much work...oh well, whatever doesn't sell, will go to Goodwill. The kids want to have a cookie/brownie sale table...so I have been baking like a mad woman. Delaney said to me, "Mamma, I can make like two dollars or something to bring Quinn home, that's a lot of money." So, of course, I'm baking and baking for them. Time for more coffee, baking and pricing items....Take Care.

Angel said...

sooooooo precious. Angel

Gudl said...

How sweet!

Alan said...

Don't we wish all orphans could have a mother. Thank you for the beautiful picture and the inpiring adoption story.

Debbie said...

Absolutely precious!

Annie said...

You have written brilliantly of something nearly impossible to describe. Bless you.